Less Than 1 Week to Xmas

we got less than 1 week till Xmas..... and means 1 week of saturation.... and i pray that my group during this Xmas... will start growing and end this year a big band...... and ths is what i hope for and pray for.... not just in the number but also in their spiritual level of reading the bible every day and pray... that they will birng friends also....

and now we are counting down 91 days to ORD.... yah..........

means out of CCOSGD.....

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SPeCIAL Musical

WOW!!!!!!!! the SPeCIAL Musical just ended. and can said that i abit sad that the musical ended so fast.... hope the musical will last like 2 weeks... hahahhaha...... there are some photo taken during the last day... and FIRST time doing Musical back stage... but i still enjoyed yourself behind the stage...

this the back drop i need to turn left and right change from school to HDB



5 mins to the show... and by the way i and tracy look like the door keeper.....



photo taking after the first session on sunday....







END of the Musical SAD :(



And this day i will always remember.... all the kids from 10 to 12 really grow up ALOT ALOT...

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Prayer Meeting Yesterday

WOW!!!!

Yesterday we have a wonderful and Powerful prayer meeting that many of us is so close to the presence of God. And we dwell in the presence of God for i think 1 hour in prayer and in worship. and God spoke to me three things that He want to see in my life.

1. to be willing to LOVE others
2. have a heart after God's heart and seek after God in my QT
3. to have more encourage in myself and also God when trying new things in life

after the powerful prayer meeting we went to have a wonderful lunch at bedok interchange

waiting for the bus to come three of the leaders in our zone (GIRLS POWER)


after fellowship with them we went to City Hall for another shopping with Anson, Lena, Jonathan, ZiHao, Jackson and Xiu Yuan....

Some where in City Hall guess where is this place?



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Taiwan For Hoildays!!!!!

WOW!!!!!!!

Just came back from Taiwan!!!!! is so fun over there.... the most happy days are the last 3 days in taiwan it was so so FUN.......... the first place we went was WINDOW ON CHINA is also called the 小人国... everything over there is SO so so so small that you feel that you are the giant over them... hahahahahaha..... some photo taken over there at WINDOW ON CHINA 小人国.











After that we went to another place too bad i never take any photo.... why not go to the last day of the trip we found something that you will never think of going there......







AND this is the last meal we have in TAIWAN.....

HOPE TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN.....

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Year 2008

Wow is for a long time i never update my blog.... and i will try to blog everyday like i use to do hahahahahaha...... so this really need a new goals for 2008... and i really want to try something different... during chinese new year went shopping with anson, timothy and jonathan and they really go all the way to use up my money into a good use bought so many things... i bought two jeans, one T-shirt, one shirt and also pair of shoes... and maybe next time around i might buy a ed-hardy t-shirt that is a bomb when i get my next pay that is very very near... i really want to look different in the outside and also in inside spiritually...

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Second Day of my leave

Wow.... this my second day of leave and most of the time i spend sleeping and going online..... but today abit different i have to go do visitation for zilei group... cos as you read yesterday post, she went oversea for teacher exchange (so good i want to go too) but is ok..... i shall stay in singapore to serve God hahahahahhaha even more.... yesterday was very different day for me.... that i have nobody to really listen to me and feel the way feel tried after serving for all 7 childrens church svc....... i think this is a very very stretch christmas for me.... and for most of us but we still go though the rush timing during this christmas...... today the plan for me is as follow:

3:00pm to 6:00pm - Go walk walk around AMK and Compress Point......
6:00pm to 6:30pm - have a good Dinner by myself hahahahah so i can enjoy the food myself......
6:30pm to 9:00pm - Do visitation......
9:30pm - Home sweet Home......

This my plan for today..... if you wnat you can join me to have dinner but if can i like to have dinner by myself......


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First day of my leave

Sigh....... first day of my leave i spend the day whole sleeping and try to go out with friends but none of them reply my message i think they are super busy doing their calling and also doing their visitation..... wow zilei going oversea again and have help her to cover her area for her.... and i super tired and dry in my spirit after serving for i think 7 svc and i attend 1 main svc.... and hope that i can spend more time with my best friends.... and also my aa zone FAMILY..... really this year christmas i feel a different kind of christmas i use to have a born and a disappointed christmas that i will have scolding and rejected by people and lost of FAMILY love that i want it so much that i cant find it any more.....


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This Year Christmas Very Disappointing

Merry Christmas to all of You! Yes i back again to my blog, to update things around me happen everyday, every min and every second. Back to the subject this year christmas i were very disappointed with alot of things. And i think this year christmas is really a christmas that i never want to have again. Many people wondering why i cry yesterday during svc. i cry because not of the drama but i was thinking about the fengge play as tom that he does not have or know who is his parents. and when i see people giving out present to friends and family i reminded of my broken family that i have, and i feel that this year i come to a place that i must make a decision to give present to people around me this year, and this month i dont even have money to spend on myself and just want to bless someone else happy during this season. and many time you see me almost everytime wear the same shirt and jean every weekend or going out with people. and this season i must really eat at home and times i will never go eat dinner and lunch or even eat anything. just want to see the smile on my friends faces. but this year was very very bad that i only manage to buy two things for jonathan and i feel bad without buying other people present and i feel that i have short changing them in their friendship....


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Tried

Super tried and dry in my spirit this week dont know why??? thinking of how to go for cell group meeting for the next few month cos i stick in camp till 7 sometime to even 8.... how to go for make up cell group...... and sunday even wost have to go back to camp also sometime.... cannot go for make up cell group meeting.... stressssss...... how????? God i really in the stage that i am very dry and lost the hunger for more of You GOD...... God i make this stresss.... go away from me... and i wont be stresss in the small things of coming for cell group meeting and serving you...... HELP ME GOD!


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Serving GOD!!!!!

Wow..... This week is a tried one..... but i thank God for giving me strength to serve Him this week..... About what new starting from next week i be doing N06 a woodlands bus.... thank God for giving me chances to come back to transport..... but i cant do return sad :( but is OK.... still to serve God.......

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LONGGGGGGG TIME

WOW!!!!!! Since a LONG Time i never update my Blog.....

Last week we celebrated Mei Xiu birthday at Chinatown KTV.... This is the first time step into a KTV..... and alot of our zone people will there only.. ME, Anson, Jonathan, Jackson, Michelle, Zi Hao and the birthday girl.... most of all we enjoy ourselves breaking all the KTV rules... the following section is taken from my ZS Anson BLOG.... (Dont know that he also got Blog right? hahahahahahaha)

KARAOKE RULES 101

1. No Skipping of Songs

2. No Singing Together When Someone Is Singing

3. No USING Of Remote Control As Mike

4. No Changing Of Song Lyrics

5. No Switching Of Singers Suddenly

The Above rules have been seriously violated by AA personals especially JACKSON TAN !!!!!!!!!

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PLease PRAY for ME!!!!`

This month i been go in and out of hospital for many reason, 1 is cos by my intestine and another is my headache is been very bad this year........ so really need all your prayers and i going for a CT scan on the 27 july in CGH on my head..........

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Emerge, Revelation and PASSION

1. Emerge: This year EMERGE is really a changing point, mind and life changing year for me because i in army, many things that i like to do but i cant this year. this year Pastor Kong is really challenging us to be the salt and the light of the world, one night pastor preach on the title Have a broken heart to God. And the word and the presence really change me and bring me closer to God and into His love more, during one of the emerge session LOVE of GOD is so close and strong i cry cause many time i think no body loves me and cares for me. but no GOD still loves me and the people around me they still loves and cares for me.

2. Revelation this week: Isaiah 9: 2 " The people who walk in darkness will see a great light. For those who live in a land of deep darkness, a light will shine." many time i really will feel sad, depress of some of the things, like this verse when you in darkness in times GOD will give you a great LIGHT in front to shine for you so i can really keep on walking to the bright LIGHT GOD have set to direct me.

3. what PASSION means to me:

P - Patient - I must have PATIENT. and PASSION have to build up slowly.
A - Able - I ABLE to have PASSION to win the lost and in the things i like and love to do for GOD.
S - Slowly- PASSION have to build up SLOWLY, no point rushing.
S - Sow- PASSION giving some to people who are in need of something.
I - Into - For me to have PASSION in the lost and ministry i must get INTO the things i love and can do.
O - Overcome - I must OVERCOME the things of world during this time my PASSION will keep growing.
N - Never give up - I must NEVER GIVE UP in myself and in GOD for the PASSION in the lost and ministry .

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Emerge 2007 Part 1

This week is our youth Conference EMERGE 2007, where all the youth will come together to set a revival in their campus. And this year emerge is a bit different from the past few years, this year we have all competition and games for the youth to show their talent. And this year theme is “I CAN DO ALL THINGS” and also this year I in army cant join any competition, I want to thank God that I manage to come for all the session only for the final night that I have to book in at 2030, but is ok. I enjoy myself in this year emerge. Many things have change my view of not just serving the Lord but is also LOVING the Lord, and we must always trust in God and do it with God strength and not by own strength to do the things of God.

As many people know that I have suffer in depression and have a through of ending my life and many people say that I cannot do things well and when ever I do something for them, they never say even a thank you. And after 1 June 2007 night session I was reminded by God in the svc I broke down before God and start to cry, cause I in the past don’t understand the meaning of Love and I always think that I am not loveable in my own family, church people and in camp.

Emerge 2007 Part 2

But after yesterday svc God hit my heart and broke all the wrong things and the thinking that I have, and I cry out to God and lead me out of the thinking that I have and break the wall of depression and sadness that I will be who I am in the past happy. And many people have think that I am weak in my physical body, yeah I weak in my physical body but I know one thing, God will give me strength and He will bring me to another level of spiritual grown and I willing to give my life to die for Christ the same way Jesus die in the world to bring the soul to God. I willing to be a fool for Christ. God is always there with me, and He have also set people to encourage and help me when I feel no meaning living, and they encourage me. And times that my day is bad, they are there to make it happy. The most impact session was yesterday svc about the LOVE with God.

To come back to the first love that I have with when I first receive God into my life, and it really touch me and my life and the love to God even more. And I really want to thank God for the following people who are always there to cheer me through hard time. Jonathan, Elaine, Jackson, Zilei, Anson, Yvonne and many of you. So keep praying for me. That my relationship with God will be strengths.

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The Lost Sheep

Today I am remind of this story in the bible talking about the lost sheep and remind of the email I send last time to all my friends and now thinking though what I said that time in my email. I was thinking why did I write about the lost sheep that time. And I remember cause that time I was really very sad and sown and that nobody is there to encourage and talk to me, but only God aloe, but I must remember something that God don’t have just one sheep but there are a lot of sheep to look after and I was thinking now can one sheep live alone without any sheep around and thinking is like in the real life if a person without friends the person will feel alone, sad, feel more rejected in the world or in the place. We also have to look at the big picture of what God wants to do in our life, God gives us friends to help each other to grow in spiritually and also in relationship with people. I know one fact that if you are lost, your friends will be worry about you. So whenever a Christian backslide the first person or the first group of people they will be shock that will be your friends. So before you think of BS or killing yourself think about who will you hurt before making the decision of BS or killing yourself. Praise the Lord hear that my area AA204 have 13 newcomers and total 32 kids came this Easter celebration. And I want to thank God for the breakthrough and bring kids into the kingdom of God.

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In Good or Bad

This weekend I called to come back to camp on Sunday morning 8am. And many things happen this whole weekends. For no reason I cant feet the presence of God, when I do my quiet time in my army camp room. And I feel I so death in my walk with God when I in army. And many time I feel like giving up cause I really cant feel God in the place and I was wondering God have you forsaken me in this place and leave me, were alone to go though all this thing, and many night I have cry because I cant feel God around me. So yesterday on the way back home. I was sms Jonathan and I talk to him the things that happen to me this whole week. He is always a good encourager always talk to me when I need someone to talk to. After sms yesterday I was doing my quiet time and cry again cause yesterday God spoken to me, that I have to keep walking and don’t look back at the past and God show me John 3: 16. And Jesus die for me to set me free from all the broken hearted and take away all the bad things and give me good things and a positive thinking and all the things that I think must be change from (-) to (+). And I must look at the good slide of the army life, and the things that are going to come, so I must hold on to the calling of God and never let the bad things stop me from going toward the calling of God have given to me.

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I'M back to blog

heLOW!!!

My friends i'm to blog (hahahahhaah) i think i have not blog for 2 months, cos i'm in army camp and many things have happen during army last 2 months. And i have go though alot of up and down by myself in the camp. Many people backsilde from church before they cant face the really fact in army bad things will happen to them, but they think that they will not leave God during the 2 year serving in NS. And many of the time, they are taken away and blined by the things of the world and never want to overcome and cross over. And many time they will feel bored and tried cos no one is there to encourage them to keep walking in the LORD. and they choose to follow the world, and they find no meaning in christ, so they backsilde from the LORD and go to the world and they think they will find themselves peace and fun. but no they find problems and problems when they leave the LORD. And thank GOD i got a church that really cares, loves and encourage me to love GOD and love Jesus in times of problem and not just keep it to myself but i have to learn to share with my friends and leaders that is set for me to help me to grow. Thanks to Jonathan, Elaine, Jackson, Anson, Wai Sum, Mei Xiu, Michelle, Xiu Yuan and many other in children's church that cares about me.

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Tomorrow is A brand new Start of Life.

heLOW.....

Today is my last day to blog cos i am going into army tomorrow (abit sad). hope all my friends will remember me. And many things have happen during this few days happy and sad also have, but the thing is how you look at the thing that happen that day. And i want to say a BIG THANK YOU to all my friends and HAPPY FAMILY ( Jonathan, Elaine and Jackson) for encourage me when i was feeling down and cheer me up when i was lost thanks to all of them. Keep praying for me to have a good start in the army.

REALLY MISS ALL OF YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!

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4 more days to army!

Hi... i have 4 more days to spend and to enjoy before i going into army and i feel abit sad, and many things happen to me last week i feel i am lost in the spirit and lost all my friends and feel nobody is around to encourage me but i believe i all i need is the encourage from God and no people or man. but i still have to thank God for putting Jonathan, Elaine and Jackson. and i remember something i have to say sorry to Jackson for yesterday. and this week many people is meeting me out for dinner and fellowship with me before i go into army to spend my 2 years in the camp to be train to become a real man (hahahahahahahahahah).


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